I'm sorry for a second post in the day---- I need to think out-loud
I am so sad for Henry--- I find myself breaking down several times an hour
I am so ashamed to be even thinking about adopting another child with Matt--- Jacob/ Henry is so in my heart and I feel like I am betraying him by even trying to think this through. But another part of me says that those thoughts are terribly selfish for me and my lost angel would want another of HIS kids given a chance at life.
It is too early in the grieving process to be doing this---- I know it is--- I also know that I can't let Little Matt/Screech wait for a decision. Our papers are about ready to go--- We need to decide this week. I will NOT risk losing another of my kids.
please pray that we make the right choice as we are blinded by this fog that is the horrible grief of the loss of little Jacob/Henry.
Pray for us!